Change

I read a quote on Miss Teisha's blog

today that really made me think!

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy;

for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves;

we must die to one life

before we can enter another."

- Anatole Frances

I am thinking back to when me and Kenz were first married.

We lived in the crappiest apartment Nephi had to offer!

Haha, it was tiny and ugly!

I hated it so much and I couldn't even

wait to move to a better place.

We have come so far since that day.

But looking back,

I remember all these fun memories

of being a brand new newlywed there.

Opening all our wedding presents,

making Kenzie lunches for work,

playing in the yard,

walking to 7-11 to get a drink.......

We had such good times and I didn't even realize it!

Sometimes you want something so much

that it's pretty much all you think about.

But then you get it.

And like the quote said,

it is a little melancholy.

Because whether the change is good or bad,

you leave a part of you behind.

There are SO many things I miss about the past.

So many people, relationships, objects, memories

that I probably didn't even want at the time,

but now I realize just how precious

some things were.

But, the fact of the matter is that

change happens.

I just got a random text from my hubby that said

I love you.

I wouldn't trade that for any memory

I have of the past.

There is a part of me at Juab High School.

In Nephi, at Snow College, California, New York.....

The list could go on.

But I am happy that those are just small parts

and that most of me is right here right now

with the person I love the very most.