A Very Special Day

Today is a very special day...

It's Ty's 18th birthday!

Ty is one of my very best friends in this world and I do not know what I would do without him. He is such a sweetheart and I just love being around him. He is the best brother anyone could ever ask for and as much as I hate seeing him grow up, I am so looking forward to seeing what the future holds for my cute, smart, funny, sweet little brother!

I love you Ty and I hope you have the best birthday ever!

Thanksgiving

Our Thanksgiving was a little different this year because everyone had to work! Kenzie, Mom, and Zack all had to work on Thanksgiving so we decided to do a late dinner at our house. We didn't eat until about 8:00. I made the turkey! I was pretty nervous because I have never made a turkey before, but it turned out just fine! The food was delicious and it was nice to spend some quality time with the fam. 

Ty hung out with me while we waited for the rest of the family to show up. Hemi just LOVES Ty. He took a nap and she would just go snuggle up to him!

We have had a rough year,

but we have SO MUCH to be thankful for. 

Sometimes I forget how lucky we are to have the things we have. I am so thankful for each and every member of my family, for my house with my garage so my car is never frozen in the mornings, for my nice car, my job, my puppy, and mostly for my sweet husband. 

Now bring on Christmas!!!!

A Very Formal Thanksgiving!

Last Friday we had Thanksgiving Dinner with some of our favorite people. I just love that we have such good friends that we spend holidays with. The food was delicious, the company was awesome, and now we are looking forward to the Christmas party in a couple weeks!

Here are the boys saying a few words before we had dinner!

They are so funny!

After dinner,

Taylon had a little surprise for the boys.

Ash orders clothes for a living...

So they couldn't resist buying the boys these tuxedo shirts for pictures!

You would not believe how excited they got when Taylon busted them out.

It was like a brawl to get the right size. Then Taylon got out their camera and tripod and took pictures.Aren't they a cute bunch of boys!

 Parker, Carter, Levi, Kenz, Kaden, Paul, Taylon

Matt, Kamron, Jord, Tyler, and Chet

The girls didn't get a picture cuz we were too busy taking pictures of the crazy boys!

What a great group of friends to be thankful for!

We Broke Dawn!

We broke dawn!

Haha I had decided this year that I was going to wait and see the movie on Friday or Saturday and not fight the crowds to see the premiere. Well on Thursday at about noon I decided I couldn't bear not going to Breaking Dawn at midnight so my mom ran down to the theater and got in line. Luckily she was able to get a spot about 15 people back. When I got off work Zack, Ty, and I went over and kept the spot for the next 8 hours! We ended up having quite the variety of people in our twilight group... Of course my aunt Taneal came. I just love her. Mack got off work, took a quick nap then came to join us. We ended up in line with our friends, Matt, Kazia, and Kensey. Our random little cousin Kaden somehow found his way to our group. And of course Mom and Ken. We ate pizza, laughed A LOT, watched the movies on our mini DVD player, laughed some more and ended up in a mosh pit with about 50 teenagers. Haha, it was outrageous.But we got PRIME seats and the show was amazing. I will most definitely be seeing it again, and I am SO glad we decided to go on Thursday night. We had so much fun!

Since mom left us for a while to go to work, we didn't get too many pictures. But here is one of me and the boys waiting in line ALL freaking day!

Twilight enthusiasts!

Baby Talk

WELL....

I hope you all won't mind if I vent for a minute.

I have some major emotions that I need to get out of my system!

Most of you probably don't know that Kenz and I

have spent most of this year trying to get pregnant. 

In the beginning, 

we just decided to stop being careful

and see if anything happens.

Nothing.

A few months later we started

really WANTING a baby.

Nothing.

Nothing, nothing. 

Now it is starting to consume me,

and every month is getting sadder and sadder.

I have been going to the doctor

and by next Monday we will know for sure what is going on.

The doc is like 90% sure that I have

 Endometriosis

but I had blood work and ultrasounds all last week

to rule out ovarian cysts or tumors.

I found out today that I have very high levels of prolactin,

which could be causing all of this. 

Assuming that it is endometriosis,

I am going to have to start this intense (expensive) therapy for 3-6 months

where I go in weekly for a shot and take pills everyday 

which will turn off my estrogen, which is what feeds the endometriosis.

Oh and PS! You can't get pregnant during this therapy!

Sounds super appealing right??

OR 

we can continue trying and take our chances of

getting pregnant with endometriosis,

which are not very high and include risks of miscarrying. 

Does that not seem like a lose/lose situation?!

I am so frustrated and this has been such an emotional roller coaster.

It is so hard for me to see people who don't even WANT kids

or TRY to get pregnant getting them.

There are so many times people get drunk and get pregnant!

Or don't want another baby, but get an accident!

Or we have a friend who's girlfriend basically tricked him into

getting her pregnant so he wouldn't break up with her.

Needless to say it is infuriating to me

that someone could bring a baby into the world

in those types of situations when I want one so bad!

I am hesitant to say that because I don't want my good friends

that are pregnant to think I am not happy for them, because I totally am!

And I know they will be amazing parents.

I'm just jealous!

I know we are still young

and there is tons of time to start our family. 

But when you decide that you are ready for it,

it is hard not to be sad when it doesn't happen.

And it is hard not to get upset when people don't appreciate

the blessing of having kids.

And on top of that, 

it SUCKS getting poked and picked on at the doctor

all the time and knowing you're not getting any closer to the end.

Sorry for the pity party!

I am trying to have a good attitude

and not stress out too much about it

cuz I'm sure that's only making matters worse.

I just want to start my family!

What a Guy!

Just had to share a few things that my hubby has done lately

that have made me absolutely, head over heels in love!!!

* He keeps making me dinner!
Several times in the last few weeks I have come home 

from work and he has dinner ready.

He even cooks healthy stuff like stir fry 

cuz we are trying to eat good!

* He drove clear to Lehi one day last week and bought me a

 snowboard, boots, and bindings!

I love it!

* He came out to work and broke into my car

when I locked my keys in the car last week!

* He took me on TWO nice dates over the weekend

which both included a nice dinner and some good shopping!

* But the best one happened last night during an hour long phone call

when he told me that I didn't need to worry because he would never let anybody hurt me!
Is that not the sweetest thing a guy can say to you????

I can't believe the freaking cuteness sometimes.

Sorry to get all cheesy....

But I just have to make sure I remember

all these sweet things he does on a daily basis!

How the heck did I get so lucky!!!!

A Good Person

I have something that I have been wanting to blog 

about for quite some time now,

but haven't really known exactly what to say

and didn't want to offend anyone or

make anyone think any less of me.

But I need to get some of these feelings out.

My testimony is not strong.

Since about this time last year we have had several things happen

( especially lately)

that have made me really question a lot of things.

We aren't active in the church.

We do things that are frowned upon by the church.

Are we bad people?

We still believe in God and Jesus and the Holy Ghost.

But I do not feel that the church is being ran the

way that Heavenly Father intended it.

And that makes it very hard for me to go

and to pay my tithing and to sit in relief society and get judged.

Mostly I just want to know...

What makes you a good person?

I know so many people who drink and swear

that are great people and who would do anything in the world for you.

I have had some of these people show up to 

help me when I needed someone the most.

I can't even begin to describe how wonderful some of

the people in my life are.... who aren't active in the church.

I get a warm and welcomed feeling when I am with these people.

And it so hard for me to believe that these people

are going to be turned away by Jesus when they try to go to heaven

or will be denied the opportunity to be with their families forever.

Maybe this is just a phase we are going through.

Or maybe I am making a major change in my life.

I just know that I want to be a good person.
And I feel like I have been a better person this last year

than I have been my whole life.

I need some direction!
Does anyone else feel this way sometimes??